You pick up the phone to call a friend, you hold the phone, staring deep into its hypothetical eyes. You run your thumb across the green 'send' button... thinking. It looks back at you- the phone- asking a question: "What are you gonna say anyway?". And you start thinking.
You want to talk and you would've called and just done so, if the damn little piece of complicated machinery in your hand hadn't just asked you such an unnerving question right at the last moment. You think (when I say you, i really mean me, but bear with me) hard about what to say, should you just stick to the hi, hellos? Or start off with something dramatic? Maybe burst out into song... Does the other person even want to hear you sing? I'd think not. But you've got stuff on your mind haven't you? Something you want to say so bad, even though its probably not that important. You wonder if you'll get the right response even when you're sure you will. You don't want to sound too gloomy, in case you bring your friends mood down as well. But you don't wanna sound immensely jolly either, your friend might not be in the mood for that.
'buzz!'; new text message, it happens every time you're in deep thought, and you check your message hoping its something awesome. Its a stupid forward message like always. You forgot what you were thinking. You pick up your phone out of habit, the contact book is still open and look at who's names highlighted; exactly the person you wanted to talk to. You remember what you spent the last half hour doing. You clear your mind and just press the green button...
If only calling a friend were as easy as this.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
WHAT THE FUCK?!
WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with people in this country? How did we come to this? Why is the model of our society based on screwing people over? Have you ever noticed that people actually take pleasure in screwing over people around them just for the sake of it...?
This is what i witnessed today: I was in the second lane, and this incident took place in the first, this Corolla was driving pretty slow, slow enough not to be in the first lane. Now this other Corolla came up behind the first and started honking the fuck out of his horn like he was gonna crap his pants or somethin'. Now the second Corolla guy was an asshole, I admit, but guess what the first one does? He bloody slams on his brakes and the second slams into the back of the first one. What the fuck was THAT? These two weren't even drivers (chauffers), they actually looked like sane, God fearing individuals. Thank goodness i was moving too fast to witness the end of that debacle!
And yesterday. I was parked in the Liberty U, and actually properly parked (thank my lucky stars!). Anyway, the car to my right started backing out- oh, and for those of you who aren't familiar with the parking situation in Liberty, its a complete buttcrack!; double parking and all that shit- and a car, two cars to the right started backing out. This driver dude was parked behind the car to my right, so he moved his car a little ahead to let the car on my right back out. Now driver dudes who bring the mem sahibs to Liberty really love to properly park their cars, sit in the shit position on the parapet wall of the Liberty walkway and scratch their balls. So like every other ball scratching driver, the one moving his car was eager for the chance to give his a little scratch. Now as he moved his car forward, the car two spaces to my right started to back out, he was very stuck, and irritated, because if he'd waited those few moments of time, he could've parked where the second car was backing out. Anyway, he backed up to let the second car out, but because of his lapse of concentration due to his itching whatever, this other ball scratcher quickly parked in the place of the second. Well he still had the spot the first car vacated but no! this asswipe in a Lancer honks the living shit out of all of us and parks his car in the spot to my right. WHY screw over the poor driver dude? whose only wish in life was to sit on that parapet and have a little public scratch...
Somehow, we've degenerated into that annoying little kid from the simpsons, the pinnacle of whose life is to have a good "HA HA!" at some poor bastard. All I'm waiting for is for us to turn yellow any moment now...
This is what i witnessed today: I was in the second lane, and this incident took place in the first, this Corolla was driving pretty slow, slow enough not to be in the first lane. Now this other Corolla came up behind the first and started honking the fuck out of his horn like he was gonna crap his pants or somethin'. Now the second Corolla guy was an asshole, I admit, but guess what the first one does? He bloody slams on his brakes and the second slams into the back of the first one. What the fuck was THAT? These two weren't even drivers (chauffers), they actually looked like sane, God fearing individuals. Thank goodness i was moving too fast to witness the end of that debacle!
And yesterday. I was parked in the Liberty U, and actually properly parked (thank my lucky stars!). Anyway, the car to my right started backing out- oh, and for those of you who aren't familiar with the parking situation in Liberty, its a complete buttcrack!; double parking and all that shit- and a car, two cars to the right started backing out. This driver dude was parked behind the car to my right, so he moved his car a little ahead to let the car on my right back out. Now driver dudes who bring the mem sahibs to Liberty really love to properly park their cars, sit in the shit position on the parapet wall of the Liberty walkway and scratch their balls. So like every other ball scratching driver, the one moving his car was eager for the chance to give his a little scratch. Now as he moved his car forward, the car two spaces to my right started to back out, he was very stuck, and irritated, because if he'd waited those few moments of time, he could've parked where the second car was backing out. Anyway, he backed up to let the second car out, but because of his lapse of concentration due to his itching whatever, this other ball scratcher quickly parked in the place of the second. Well he still had the spot the first car vacated but no! this asswipe in a Lancer honks the living shit out of all of us and parks his car in the spot to my right. WHY screw over the poor driver dude? whose only wish in life was to sit on that parapet and have a little public scratch...
Somehow, we've degenerated into that annoying little kid from the simpsons, the pinnacle of whose life is to have a good "HA HA!" at some poor bastard. All I'm waiting for is for us to turn yellow any moment now...
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Friday, September 18, 2009
friendship, loyalty, trust, regard... fuck it, and fuck off!
A friend and I once discussed the purpose of this world and the people in it. Though we don't want to agree (and I say this in the most non American way possible) with it as logical free thinking men, our purpose in this world is to be Gods people. Which is quite the true, nice thing to say, nothing to do with the title.
Although the latter part of the first statement is far more wretched. Our purpose as people is to screw people over. Yes. Not occasionally or anything, but any chance we get! Plot, manipulate, use, snitch, stab, betray. How else would you expect to succeed? You could just say inshAllah and hope for people for sort themselves out, but its someone else's prerogative, not mine at least.
You'd think with all this 'non-manly' talk about love and caring and compassion that gets thrown around these days, someone would've started giving a fuck by now. And while we're on that, I thought men were the bigger hypocrites; setting double standards and all, but my experiences have come to show, surprisingly, that they're not. Women are. Any woman reading this would be quick to pull out the gender card and call me sexist but its true. Irrespective of how things actually happen, women always want equality, respect and all that crap, give them that and the next thing you know you'll be down on the ground with them drumming the life out of your hard little head! There are always exceptions and there definitely are some in this case too, but there can only be so many seats on the exceptions boat.
There aren't many things I give myself credit for, not many at all, but there are some; friendship, loyalty, trust, regard (fuck it and fuck off! but that is a bit off the point for the moment so lets move on). Why? when I truly put a lot of effort into a relationship, take care of a couple of things consciously, should i not expect just those couple of things back? I'm sure I'm entitled by any standards.
I have this friend who lies, and about the most insignificant of things, but I never thought he'd lie to me about anything. He did. I voiced my opinion, asked him to just not do that to me anymore. He did it again, and again, and again. I have this friend who doesn't give a crap about anything. All I've ever asked from her is to treat others like she'd like to be treated, apparently the idea doesn't sink in as easily as i thought it should. This other friend who turned down an invite for a get-together iftari saying he didn't have enough money and then went to at least three others in just the next week. This could either mean that 'I'm too proud to have you pay for me' or 'you're one jackass i definitely don't wanna spend my time with!'. Neither is acceptable.
I'm not trying to portray myself as Mr. Goody Twoshoes and look down on anybody, no! I've not done good to so many different people. I've never been a good friend to anyone who's tried to be one to me, and I don't know why I do it. I want to take names and apologize, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Its a vicious circle.
You're always expected to be a man and let it go. What real man talks about this acute stuff anyway? I've been told by people whom I question that I should change. I think we all know what they imply. They're wrong.
Although the latter part of the first statement is far more wretched. Our purpose as people is to screw people over. Yes. Not occasionally or anything, but any chance we get! Plot, manipulate, use, snitch, stab, betray. How else would you expect to succeed? You could just say inshAllah and hope for people for sort themselves out, but its someone else's prerogative, not mine at least.
You'd think with all this 'non-manly' talk about love and caring and compassion that gets thrown around these days, someone would've started giving a fuck by now. And while we're on that, I thought men were the bigger hypocrites; setting double standards and all, but my experiences have come to show, surprisingly, that they're not. Women are. Any woman reading this would be quick to pull out the gender card and call me sexist but its true. Irrespective of how things actually happen, women always want equality, respect and all that crap, give them that and the next thing you know you'll be down on the ground with them drumming the life out of your hard little head! There are always exceptions and there definitely are some in this case too, but there can only be so many seats on the exceptions boat.
There aren't many things I give myself credit for, not many at all, but there are some; friendship, loyalty, trust, regard (fuck it and fuck off! but that is a bit off the point for the moment so lets move on). Why? when I truly put a lot of effort into a relationship, take care of a couple of things consciously, should i not expect just those couple of things back? I'm sure I'm entitled by any standards.
I have this friend who lies, and about the most insignificant of things, but I never thought he'd lie to me about anything. He did. I voiced my opinion, asked him to just not do that to me anymore. He did it again, and again, and again. I have this friend who doesn't give a crap about anything. All I've ever asked from her is to treat others like she'd like to be treated, apparently the idea doesn't sink in as easily as i thought it should. This other friend who turned down an invite for a get-together iftari saying he didn't have enough money and then went to at least three others in just the next week. This could either mean that 'I'm too proud to have you pay for me' or 'you're one jackass i definitely don't wanna spend my time with!'. Neither is acceptable.
I'm not trying to portray myself as Mr. Goody Twoshoes and look down on anybody, no! I've not done good to so many different people. I've never been a good friend to anyone who's tried to be one to me, and I don't know why I do it. I want to take names and apologize, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Its a vicious circle.
You're always expected to be a man and let it go. What real man talks about this acute stuff anyway? I've been told by people whom I question that I should change. I think we all know what they imply. They're wrong.
Friday, September 4, 2009
noori (coke studio) - kedaar
aa aaa aaa aa
aa aaa aaa aa
chchin gaya teray dil ka chain ab
(ab) chayi kedaar aur bheegay teray naina
lut gayee teray man ki aas
gum sum udaas ye rog to hai sehna
sapna saja ke, sab se pa ke
duur samandar aag bharke hai
jag se oajhal, mann ke andar
har kinaare dhoondtay phirain
wo heeray moti, hum ko mil jaayen
kuch torr ke aaye, kuch jorr ke aaye
hum aag ke panchchii!
ab de chukay, wo imtehan
dil par sahe jin ke nishan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan
dhum cha, dhum cha...(4)
dhal jaaye gi ye ghum ki raat
barsain ge moti, phool bhi khilain ge
chchin gayey jo thay chiragh
hum justujoo main aur bhi ... ge
kal ko jagaane, ye deewaane
roshni (le) kar chalain ge
man ke andar, asmaan ko
har dishaa main dhoondtay phirain wo!
(wo) heeray moti, hum ko mil jaayen
sab chorr ke aaye, sab torr ke aaye
hum aag ke panchchii!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sahay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
dhoom tara dene na, dene na, dene na..(4)
... .... ... jahan
raakh wo, naye makaan
jin ki hai, talaash wo
(dhul) gayay, sab wo nishaan
dheem tana, dene nana, dene na...(10-14)
humare sang chalaay
jaisay jogi banay
humaray sang chalay ab ye...!
hum chorr ke aaye, ab torr ke aaye!
HUM AAG KE PANCHII!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sahay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sajay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
aa aaa aaa aa
chchin gaya teray dil ka chain ab
(ab) chayi kedaar aur bheegay teray naina
lut gayee teray man ki aas
gum sum udaas ye rog to hai sehna
sapna saja ke, sab se pa ke
duur samandar aag bharke hai
jag se oajhal, mann ke andar
har kinaare dhoondtay phirain
wo heeray moti, hum ko mil jaayen
kuch torr ke aaye, kuch jorr ke aaye
hum aag ke panchchii!
ab de chukay, wo imtehan
dil par sahe jin ke nishan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan
dhum cha, dhum cha...(4)
dhal jaaye gi ye ghum ki raat
barsain ge moti, phool bhi khilain ge
chchin gayey jo thay chiragh
hum justujoo main aur bhi ... ge
kal ko jagaane, ye deewaane
roshni (le) kar chalain ge
man ke andar, asmaan ko
har dishaa main dhoondtay phirain wo!
(wo) heeray moti, hum ko mil jaayen
sab chorr ke aaye, sab torr ke aaye
hum aag ke panchchii!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sahay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
dhoom tara dene na, dene na, dene na..(4)
... .... ... jahan
raakh wo, naye makaan
jin ki hai, talaash wo
(dhul) gayay, sab wo nishaan
dheem tana, dene nana, dene na...(10-14)
humare sang chalaay
jaisay jogi banay
humaray sang chalay ab ye...!
hum chorr ke aaye, ab torr ke aaye!
HUM AAG KE PANCHII!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sahay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
hum de chukayy, wo imtehan
dil par sajay, jin ke nishaan
duur, jal raha makaan
niklaa abhi, ye karavan!
ruktaa nahin, ye kaaravan!!
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